It was about this time last year that I started blogging. The time when I put my fears aside and began sharing with the world the life changes that occurred and took me by a surprise. It was then I shared I was an Ovarian Cancer Survivor and at that point it had been about seven months since I was diagnosed and seven months since my initial surgery. If you recall I celebrated being one year cancer free this past February and I realize another year will be here before we all know it. Time has flown by! I'm writing this post because it was placed on my heart to do so. I took an unexpected break from blogging back in June because I was dealing with some fears and challenges that I just wasn't ready to discuss with the world. I will be discussing some of those things in post to come. I decided to write this because when I thought of my blogging journey I realized so much has changed from this time last year. most of the change has been mentally and even some physically. As you all know I embarked on a weight loss journey and I lost 60 pounds (I've put back on some of that weight however; I'll share why later) but mentally I'm just not the same person.
After I was initially diagnosed with cancer I knew things would never really be the same but things started off slowly, mostly in words but not in action. I told myself I wouldn't work as much as I did, devoting hours into stuff that didn't bear much fruit but I found myself back in those old habits. Well, this summer has brought on a change and might I add for the better. I now shut down my computer at 5pm, if there is something I want to do, well I do it. whether its going to see a movie, a concert, vacationing or simply swimming all by myself in a pool my husband and I bought in our backyard. I now look at things differently. Things I would have passed on previous years I now enjoy such as fishing (who would have ever thought) laying out in the sun, trying kayaking for the first time; the true simple things/pleasures of life. My motto this summer has been: "I'm just living life!" I've decided I didn't want to simply survive but I want to live!
