God: The Problem Solver

During the weeks prior to my surgery I told very few people I was having the surgery simply because not everyone can handle what you are going through. I learned that very quickly. I had some friends who told me and nearly begged me not to have it. Some said that I should get a second opinion. It was then that I realized that I must be very careful who I talk to about very sensitive matters.

You have to realize that when God tells you things, others may not be quite on that level and they will have you second guessing things that God has already confirmed. You must be planted in your faith. For a few days my friend’s opinions mattered, but my faith was activated. I knew they meant well, but unless your faith is grounded and you are very sure of what you know you need to do, it’s best to simply talk to God.

I can recall now that one day prior to my surgery, my mom and I were at the gym and I told her how I was concerned about going into surgery and now I know that as much as my mom wanted to tell me not to do it, she simply said nothing. She, of course, didn't want to see her child in pain. She, of, course didn't want to see me agonizing over it and certainly she had her own fears, but she recognized that this was above her. She wasn't in a place to make this decision for me.  I didn't understand why she didn't say anything then, but I so appreciate it now. 

At this point I learned to keep quiet. I took all of my cares and concerns to God. He was the only one who could give me the comfort I was looking for. He was the only one who literally had the blueprint of my life. He knew then, like he knows now, how he was using this to help shape me into the person I am now today.

A year ago I would have never shared "my story" with anyone else. I wouldn't have developed the relationships that I have now. I now know that I have been given a ministry to use my story for His glory. It was then that I thought that you don't share your tests, fears or your problems until you have passed them, overcome them and solved them. 

If I had listened to those folks I wouldn't have been operating under the guidance of the Holy Spirit and ultimately my story could have been different. I'm so glad I put away doubt, overcame opinions, stopped focusing on the problem and hooked up with the problem solver.